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As school draws to a close, more friends have emerged from the woodwork and I ran into a number of them in the past week. Conversations always go along the lines of… hey, you’re graduating? oh have you found a job yet? oh you’re going overseas to study, why? etc…

When I explain to them the key motivation for my life changing decision… the response is inevitably one of the two: Wow, you’re insane. OR Wow, you’re so brave.

You know what? I don’t feel brave. I don’t feel smart or able or courageous or anything. I am completely and utterly terrified. I am so scared that I have trouble sleeping at night and my dreams are filled with worst case scenarios and reminders of everything that I am giving up in this pursuit for happiness.

Courage doesn’t mean the absence of fear. It means standing firm in the face of complete and utter terror.

Don’t tell me how crazy I am about my decision and how much I stand to lose if things don’t work out the way I plan. I know. I know better than any of you. I am not a naive little red riding hood, frolicking merrily in the woods. I am well aware of the emotional and physical risk that I am placing myself in. How could I not?

But I really do want this to work out and I refuse to live my life regretting what could have been if I’d not been such a wuss and succumbed to my fears. And I will have faith and believe that somehow, we will be able to overcome these odds.


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April 15, 2012 at 3:49 pm

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Today I was lying on my bedroom floor, staring at the ceiling (procrastinating) and thinking, “Why do things in life have to be so difficult?”

Conventional wisdom has it that if everything in life was easy and happy, we would never know satisfaction because we never had to work for our success. But is that really true? I don’t see many billionaire offsprings declaring that their wealth is not bringing them satisfaction and giving it all away so that they can enjoy the “process”… In fact, they seem pretty darn happy to me.

If I could achieve success without much work, I will be equally satisfied than if I had worked my ass off. Maybe even more because it cost me less heartbreak and effort. (i’d be like, “In yo face! A+ from studying the night before!” ) I am a firm subscriber to the belief: Work smart, not hard.

Saving time gives you more time to spend on those important to you. 🙂
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April 3, 2012 at 6:24 am